This week I went to my first college counselor appointment, and it got me thinking about the future. It's ambiguity tempts me, yet simultaneously repels me. I am thrilled to move on, yet hesitant to leave the foundations of my childhood. It's scary, to be thinking that a year from now I'll be in a dormitory, surrounded by few, if not, none of my classmates from BHS. As I begin compiling a list of the colleges that I will apply to, I can say right now that none of them are going to be easy to get into. As I think about what is riding on a simple online form that I will submit to a variety of admissions offices, I realize that the future, regardless of what I feel about it, should not be my focus. My present will decide my future. I can no longer look at the application and say "I would prefer not to." It is time for me to motivate myself to do the best that I can do in every aspect of my life. I will be a better student, sibling, daughter, and friend. Now is not the time for me to be lazy in any aspect of my life. I intend to make the most of the time that I have remaining here. If I have burnt a bridge, then I'll do what I can to rebuild it. I will take responsibility for my actions. I will live with integrity, so that those who look up to me will do the same.I will no longer be waiting for my future, I'll be creating it.
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